Surrendering to God In Times of Despair

“Why is suicide my only option?” asked Mark, who reached out to Relevant Radio® with immense pain in his voice. He explained that he had been addicted to pornography and had fallen into the gay lifestyle for many years. After living in a state of grave sin for so long, he found himself in despair. If you or someone you know can relate to Mark’s pain and desperation, know that you are not ever alone.

“Mark, I love you, brother. And God loves you, too. And he created an amazing person and Mark, God wants to do amazing things with you. And all you need do is say yes to him. When you’re saying yes to him, you’re saying yes to that supernatural power,” said Fr. Rick Heilman, regular guest and spiritual director on The Inner Life®.

Fr. Rick Heilman asked Mark to start by doing one thing to grow in hope and faith. “If you can pray a Rosary a day, that’s fine. But if you can’t do that just yet, get a Rosary and have a priest bless it and just carry that. There are so many supernatural graces that you get by just keeping that with you, okay?” He also encouraged Mark to make a good Confession, say, “I love you, God,” throughout the day, and to open himself up to God’s love in return.

No matter how difficult things get, no matter how far into sin and despair we fall, God’s love and mercy is never lost. Fr. Heilman’s words are for not only Mark, but for any one of us who is feeling unlovable and unforgiveable. “God loves you dearly and our Blessed Mother loves you dearly. Right now I’m just picturing her just holding you. And they just want you … in their company, and then let them use you and be a light to other people.”

So many of our brothers and sisters struggle with sin and addiction. Many souls have been led astray by the lies and temptations of the culture. But what we must never forget is that God is waiting to welcome us back into his company—we just need to say yes.

“You’ve been lied to. This culture of ours … [says] do what thou will. … But we’ve found joy by doing it God’s way—the holy way, the good way, the right way. And once you get there … it’s just amazing,” encouraged Fr. Heilman. He told Mark that even the biggest sinners could become the greatest saints. Once we surrender to God’s plan, there is hope, mercy, and peace to be found.

Fr. Rick Heilman and Chuck Neff, host of The Inner Life, prayed over Mark, who admitted that he was feeling desperate and has battled feelings of hopelessness for quite some time. This is their prayer:

“In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen. Heavenly Father, we ask you to reach out to Mark and just let him know in whatever way you can, just how much you love him. And help him to come home to your loving arms. And we ask through the Blessed Mother that she too embraces Mark and lets him know how much she loves him. And help him to know that he is called to this brand new, amazing life in Christ and powered by the Holy Spirit. Hail Mary… Amen.”

Today, will you pray for or reach out to someone who is hopeless and despairing? Pray that they feel the love and light of Christ and they know how valuable and irreplaceable their life is. Beg God and his Blessed Mother to wrap their arms around those most in need of our prayers.

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If you or someone you love is struggling with suicidal ideations, please reach out for help and call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, available 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255.

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Lindsey Kettner serves as a Digital Media Producer at Relevant Radio®. She is a wife, mother, and graduate of the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee, where she studied journalism and advertising. She writes daily at and on the free Relevant Radio mobile app.